When I was a child, I’ve always wanted to be a doctor. As I grew up, my dreams have changed until I decided that I will follow the footsteps of my cousins whose careers were flourishing at that time. It was a very good decision. I was blessed in a lot of ways in my career. It gave me meaning for 15 years. I thought one day, I will hold the highest position in an organization that I wanted. I have always wanted to be up there. For I thought, that was the purpose of my existence – to be successful and live my dreams. My dreams to be able to provide for my family, to travel, to have the means to help and to serve. I was happy and felt fulfilled. In the unexpected turn of events in my life, I woke up realizing that my career is not what I wanted to be for the rest of my life. In one moment of my life, I felt sad and empty. I felt I didn’t have the aspirations anymore to be someone great in my field.

My perspective shifted.Understanding that life is short and temporary, I have began to think, is this really what I have been created for? With deep reflection, I have discovered that all I want is to make use of the time given to me well. I wanted to be able to live what I’m created for. I wanted to be there for people who needs my listening ear, my helping hand, my prayers. I want to be there for my mom when she needs someone to be with. I wanted to be able to sing and perform for her and tell her, “See Mommy , I can do it”. I would like to be able to speak to a large crowd about God’s love and faithfulness and write books proclaiming the goodness of the Lord. I wanted to be able to do this now, and stop procastinating.

I was so busy building a career that I thought I’ve always wanted but at the deepest recesses of my soul, I just wanted to be Me and serve my Creator just as how He intended to when He brought me into this world. Looking back, I hope I have made the choice earlier but the Lord reminded me that the events and challenges I’ve been through have brought me to where I am today. Everything happens for a reason. I’m praying that this time I’ll have the solid courage to pursue my mission.

What do you want to be? Everyday is a gift, so make the most of it. Whatever your mission is , do it now and trust that the Lord will bless you and give the grace you will need.